Your Holy-ness

˜SPIRITUALITY™

5:00-7:00 pm It was just of those boring classroom period where the teacher then asks you a question that would send you a thousand bolts within your system, which your once sluggish body is now on guard.

| “What is your spirituality?”

I was taken aback. My neurons are on double time mode. Our professor just said something about spirituality and it is something that pertains to a desire driven by urge to do something. Desire driven by urge to do something. What? Desire? Oh, I’m having thoughts that are inappropriate again.

|”What am I longing for?”

Yes. I aspire to graduate in this university I am currently enrolled. Once I graduate I would enroll myself immediately in a graduate studies program, and find a stable job that would serve as sustenance in our daily living. I would like to pay all the debts that keep on bringing us down for years.

I want to make them proud, in many other ways than any child could do to her parents. I want their hearts be bursting with joy whenever someone would mention my name. I do not want them to regret all those times when I refuse to do household chores and other things such as requesting to make the radio they are listening to be on low, merely because I am studying. And lastly, I do not want to see again the look in their face when I graduated without making it to the honors list.

I grew up in a family where being the first is not one of the options. IT IS THE ONLY CHOICE. My father’s mother side are those we commoners call crème de la crème. Lawyer of a late president, UP graduates, businessmen, professors, and some have made their names in the other side of the world. One has his own university in Bulacan, and another made the Fernandez Street in UP Diliman an honor for us. My mother’s family though poverty-stricken, did not make that as an excuse to hamper their burning desire to persevere and graduate. Most of my aunts and my mother are teachers.

So maybe you understand now why I am like this. It is not because I am forced to do it, (though somehow it does) but I want to do it. Not just to make my clan proud of me, but to utilize this talent that God has given to me.

And what better way can I accomplish these aspirations of mine? To be the best.

Now I remember. My spirituality is to give 200% effort in everything that I do. Not just for me, for my parents, but for God, because He is the reason for everything. He validated my whole existence. He gave me such wonderful family, friends and society. What more can I ask for? As far as I am concerned, despite of my shortcomings, He never forgets to wake me up every single day. J